It was when I started

When i was younger and the Internet was still at its infancy, i found little or no use for it at all. There wasn't anything interesting other than yahoo or msn. And i was still a kid so i could barely understand half of the things on those websites. The least that i could do with the computer was use paint and play pinball.
Being a kid, I preferred playing on the streets with my friends or playing with my play station.

But there was this one day when i saw my sister getting busy creating her blog. The word blog sounded much like blob to me, so i assumed it was some technical thing. Overtime, i saw her getting more pre-occupied with her blog that it had drawn me into knowing what a blog really was.

From what I understood, It was a personal website/diary where you would put your thoughts and basically just anything that you'd want people to know. It was you're own personal radio station where you could broadcast absolutely anything that you want but in written words.

Being a highly opinionated kid, it was just what i needed.

But as I grew up, I found my blogs to be just full of hate posts and the like. It showed a part of me that wasn't meant to be shown. The side in me that was full of hate and anger grew More because of those posts. and so I deleted it. But it wont be long until i create a new one which will end up being just like the other one. Finally, i got fed up with it that i decided that i wont create blogs anymore. I found it to be destructive rather than constructive. Destructive not for others, but for myself.

But in time, I found that it was better for me to write about what i felt. Not thinking about what i felt and just going with my emotions seemed to be more destructive than i thought it would be.

Two years ago, when i started this blog, i promised myself that no matter what i put in it, deleting it was out of the question. As much good that i got out of not having a blog was nothing compared to the downsides.

Writing keeps my thoughts organized. It may not seem that it does because of all the run-on's and grammatical errors but it serves it's purpose just enough to keep me sane.